Step Two

Now for Step Two of How to Tell You are a Foodaholic.
I've once again consulted eHow for help. I've used the How To Tell If Someone Is An Alcoholic and inserted food where applicable.
Symptoms of Food Dependence in those who eat publicly:
• Excessive use: food is consumed in larger amounts and over a longer period
Isn't this the goal of eating? I always grew up thinking the more I could eat the better I would feel.
• Repeated, unsuccessful efforts to cut down or control food consumption
That is the whole point of this blog. To finally be done with these unsuccessful efforts. I want to be successful already.
• Excessive time spent in situations where food is prevalent
Okay it's absolutely impossible to avoid food. BBQ's, birthday parties, every day life and the neccessity to sustain life.
• The need for increasing amounts of food in order to feel its effects.
I don't increase the amounts, but I do use different foods for different occasions. Pain and hurt, icecream is the best. Stress? Easy a glass of wine. Happy, let's see....sushi fits best. Not feeling anything in particular....popcorn and diet coke.

I think the most frustrating thing about being a foodaholic is that no one can tell you to stop eating. You have to eat to live. With alcoholism, you walk away from alcohol. It isn't easy, but you donm't need it to live. You can survive without it. Drugs, same thing. You don't need drugs to survive. You can live without them. Sure it may not feel like you can live without those things at first, but eventually you learn how to. Not so with food. You have to continue eating to survive. So, no one can easily tell you "hey stay away from food, you're not supposed to eat food". How does someone tell you, "Hey, don't you think you've had enough?" I wish it were that easy. Food requires balance and discipline. Food requires an understaning of what you need and what you want. I've never been good at dicphering between the two. I need icecream...no I need to be aleviated from my hurt and pain. I want the icecream to do that for me. When I say it that way, it sounds incredibly studpid, but isn't that what I am in essence saying? I started this blog thinking it was about the weight, but as I am continuing in this journey I realize, the weight is just the symptom of a problem I've had for a long time. So, again I say, I'm Angie and I'm a foodaholic. This is my rock bottom, I ask food to cure the problems life contains, I realize this is stupid.